the last time i update this blog..

do u know? when u hugging someone that u love, that moment is the best things of my life.. at the last, is still is our destiny.. we still cant together.. hmm..

b4 i still wondering the last choice i made is right or not, since get ur text, i so clear now.. b4 when u reject me for twice, that twice i also cant control my tear, will come out anytime when i think about u.. but now, dunno y i will smilling to leaving.. maybe i really accept our destiny..

b4 i'm keep force myself to giv up, dont think anythings about you, but that make me more suffer, cos that not giv up, is jz running away from the truth, i dont hav the courage to face the truth..

since together with u so long time, i seem learn soooooo much with u.. b4 i jz think my family economy is fine, can pass a day than jz pass a day.. even u dint do anythings, but dunno y will slowly light up the fire in my heart to do everythings.. keep learning to do a useful guy.. but i think these only i can felt it.. haha.. but still hate myself b4 i so childish, when feel sad only will run out drink wif fren, waste all my money to drinking, haiz.. i miss my money.. T^T

i had so much memories with you, althought not all also a happy memories, is mixed with sweet, sour, bitter and spicy.. but i still will feel so happy to had those all feel.. is make my life so colourful, haha~ i love these wonderful memories.. ^^

since i choosing to leaving, i think temporary i also cant find u, not i small gas or wat, even i ald smiling to face the truth, i still need some time to giving myself some space to letting go.. dont worry for cant see me again, cos u are the one i wont forget.. we still will meet one day.. =D

your body is so weak now days, b4 i will do my best to taking u good, always keep u in good condition.. haha.. but i cant do that now, jz promise me, take very good care for urself, soon u start to work is cannot always get sick, hav to like me so strong, haha..

ok lah.. hav to say goodbye again for a temporary moment.. wish u all the best =)



topic end..

a moody and cloudy day..

since get her text at the morning, also dunno wat mood should i hav, i miss she all the time and long time dint get her news d, suddenly get her text "i dream about you", it really suprise me and make me wake up from blur mode at the morning.. after chat wif she by sms, it make me feel so good, cos i dint think we still hav chance to chat..

after that i open her blog to see, that i keep not dare to open, scare will see someting will make me feel so sad, cos got a "he" inside, but i dint care and jz open it and read all her post.. is sure got some "his" story inside, is so many love note that she write to he, after read i dunno i should happy or sad, happy is that i know u everythings is good now and sad that hav a "he" beside u..

really hope to know wat u thinking now, i know u still in relationship, but facebook Relationship Status change back to "single".. what that mean?

at the morning she tell me she wish to talk wif me long time but she not dare, scare i angry wif she =__=.. there is NO REASON to make me angry wif she, i jz damn angry myself that wat i've done and i hate myself so much.. but now, i can talk wif she anytime i think, hope can keep contact always..

since may 28 until now, i still missing she everyday and every moment, almost everyweek also will dream about she one time, going where, doing what, eathing what and going out wif someone, i cant control myself to thinking, no.. is not thinking, is i saw her shadow everywhere, feel she still beside me.. my mind always like that really scare 1 day that i will crazy..

haiz.. wat should i do, jz letting time to let she go? be a man that cant be move to keep waitting? or do somethings to hav a chance to start all over again? start all over again is not mean realationship, is start all over again jz like the day we jz meet.. for sure this is wat i wish to hav.. AAAHHHHHH!!!! wan to scream out loud.. god pls bless me..

justice kenny wif the boring life

haiz.. stupid boring weekend for me, 'lang sung' nth to do, every weekend jz like normal weekday..
jz yum char awhile wif few fren, after tat direct go home ald..
at home.. also nth to do, walk around at house, sleep around all the bed in my house, bro's, father's bed.. haha..
but... really hope to stop tis kind of boring life, but how? jz a single guy, really hope can find a gf acc me anytime..
those gal i like, but they never like me, abit also dont hav.. why.. my request also not so high, i dint find those very leng lui gal or rich gal.. :P
sometime meet a gal tat i like, but really dunno how to tell.. feel i so useless, cos scare let her reject directly, scare after i tell she dont wan meet me anymore, if meet again, scare will feel 'kam kai'..
fren told me, those things i scare is 'lebih', like than jz tell.. but if this things really happen, really hard to accept.. see.. izzit very useless.. haha..
i know i cant like tis anymore, must be brave, i will find a chance to tell, will plan how to tell is most romance.. hahaha..

ok lah.. 3.50am now.. time to sleep la, good nite everyone.. but also say for myself.. haiz..
bye lah~

jz about myself

hi everyone, i'am kenny, 24 years old, 1st time write a blog..

hmmm.. act also not much to write in 1st time, jz simply intro myself lah..

ppl told me i very handsome (but i feel i very ugly)

ppl say my body very fit (but i feel i very fat)

ppl tell me my eyes very big (but i fell my eyes like jz wake up)

ppl say i very tall (they rite, i quite tall)

ppl told me i very hardworking (actually i very lazy)

ppl say i very clever (but i feel i stupid like a elephant)

haiz... tat all lah...

everyone, wish u all hav a bright day..

all the best~